I thought relationship is all about...well... relationship! The most simplest as going out with my guy, enjoying the time we spent togather, watching a movie, going for a concert, sharing each other's food and stuff. Well, thats what any other relationships are. Everything going well. But throughout the journey of all relationship, this current one of mine is a real heartache. Lately I have no one that i could turn to to talk about how I feel about this relationship as no one bothers to even try understanding my decision. Well, its not really only my decision, but is both me and my guy's decision. Or more to say that both of us agree to this idea as we thought that it would be best for the both of us in the future. Our decision was that we were to break up this little relationship that we are in by the end of our university life. That is to say after or during our graduation day.
Sometimes i do feel that its kindda pity to end something as great as this. And most certainly that lightning dont strick the same place twice. So i dont think i will ever experience something like this ever again. But that is why i am appriciating everything that we had, and the times that we go through together.Yet somehow, somewhere, deep down, i dont feel like ending this relationship. Although knowing that that kind of hope and wish are just something that is totally out of my grasp. Its quite pity that people sometimes have the hard time to tell what love is really all about. And it is especially hard when your having a relationship with someone who doesnt know at all what love is and would always laugh at love. And sometimes you feel and wonder, where is he coming from? Which direction is he going to? oh well...this is my sadness no one could really understand.
Thats all for now. This is Kimmywrites, signing off! Good night!
Monday, August 1, 2011
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Scarlet Scarf
Sunday, June 19, 2011
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Scarlet Scarf
Love Loneliness, Hate Living Alone!
You know sometimes people would just say out that they love the peace and quiet and would really much love to stay alone? Well...not everyone are like that. There are people, like me for instance who love the peace and quiet world...but truly hate living alone. Though I love quiet, but its really great to have people living with you, people that you know are truly there that you can talk with and laugh... but here I am, staying with my uncle and my aunty, but its quiet lonely here, no one to talk to that shares the same joyment as I do... I really miss those old times...haiz...
Saturday, April 16, 2011
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Scarlet Scarf
The past forgotten
Though times have past, people have come and left. Time have never wanted to spot, not for me, not for them, mostly never for anyone.
People always say, that when there is something happy, something that is worth remembering. But why do i always forgot about my past? Was it because it was all just a little small event? Or was there something in it that i do not want to remember?
People also said "forgive and forget". Sometimes when i want to forgive another person, it suddenly seems like it became so useless to forgive them. It is as though they make it too easy for me to hate them.
People always say, that when there is something happy, something that is worth remembering. But why do i always forgot about my past? Was it because it was all just a little small event? Or was there something in it that i do not want to remember?
People also said "forgive and forget". Sometimes when i want to forgive another person, it suddenly seems like it became so useless to forgive them. It is as though they make it too easy for me to hate them.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
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Scarlet Scarf
A Past Encounter
In life, I have met with a lot of people, from many different places, from many different countries, from many different background. Every seems friendly and happy. Everyone got along together just find. But there is one problem of everyone being together . . . I find that the Malays in Malaysia doesn't always hang out with people from other part of the world. They just like to stick to their own kind like as if there was a glue between them. You cant even see them together with other races or other nationality. Im not being a racist or anything, but this is what I see everyday. Even though Malaysia's main goal is Unity, or the so called 1 Malaysia, but is this how 1Malaysia suppose to look like? Where is the meaning of 1Malaysia in the eyes of a foreigner if they see such an attitudes in the Malaysian itself? I really hope, WISH, that Malaysians could improve themselves and not just point fingers at other people.
But thats not what today's blog is about. Sometimes my mind could just slip and go else where. Anyway, talking about people, I myself once knew this person who use to be quiet in class, really nice person with that kind of size. But never could I imagine this person who one day play a terribly big fire between three men. I mean, isn't just one itself is too big? By fire, I mean love. . . oh well, it ain't my life, but its annoying to even know about it of someone I once know. . .
But thats not what today's blog is about. Sometimes my mind could just slip and go else where. Anyway, talking about people, I myself once knew this person who use to be quiet in class, really nice person with that kind of size. But never could I imagine this person who one day play a terribly big fire between three men. I mean, isn't just one itself is too big? By fire, I mean love. . . oh well, it ain't my life, but its annoying to even know about it of someone I once know. . .
Saturday, January 29, 2011
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It is never too late
I am 20 years old now, going to be 21 after 4 months. It seems that I have always celebrate, or more like having my birthday be celebrated by others during the day. Bur strangely enough, it was never during the night. Normally as I know, who doesn't celebrate their birthdays at night? Only me I guess... But what can I do. Yet, there are others amongst my friends who would send some shock wave to my brain by only asking of what I want to do during my birthday. Honestly, I have never thought of that, seeing as I have never got the chance to do the things that I want to go. But thinking back now, maybe for my 21st birthday, I should treat myself to the dance floor? Clubbing anyone? On second thought, I have been to one, and it was my first time there too, drinking Balihigh was the most wonderful beer that I have ever tasted in my whole youth life. Or maybe I should go watch a movie? But I normally watch movies even though its not my birthday... So what should I do for this year...I have absolutely no idea at all. But if you have one, do let me know.
Amongst all the quotation by great people, there is one that I could not get my mind off. It was firstly said by Confucius: "The journey is better than the destination". Which as simple as it appears, it means that, people should enjoy the experience of life, whether if it scares you, or make you lose you balance, the experience of being in love itself is more valuable than to care about how it would end. What matters most in life is not where you land your feet, but instead of where your feet steps on.
People always said to me that life is too short to complain about anything, or too short to not try out something. Too short that one day you would regret for not doing something which you want to do but fear to do. I remember watching this one show which Hilary Duff was acting in, I remember this one quotation that you would be able to find it one the wall saying: "Never let the fear strikes you out from playing the game," or something like that. In fact, if you were to think back about the meaning, it is true that life itself is a game. Like what Frodo remind Sam: “Remember what Bilbo use to say: It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to"". In deed that the road is just like your life, not knowing of what that is lies ahead of you. If you were to take the left, or even the right turning, you might never know what were to come next, whether it is good for you, or bad.
Life is just as unpredictable as those that die as soon as their were born. If we can still survive till this current age, it proof that we are strong. Strong enough to make any journey without having to fear of what might come. And it is never to late.
For my birthday, I think I go back to the traditional saying: "Be with my family, friends, and my boy friend". That is all that I can ever ask for.
Amongst all the quotation by great people, there is one that I could not get my mind off. It was firstly said by Confucius: "The journey is better than the destination". Which as simple as it appears, it means that, people should enjoy the experience of life, whether if it scares you, or make you lose you balance, the experience of being in love itself is more valuable than to care about how it would end. What matters most in life is not where you land your feet, but instead of where your feet steps on.
People always said to me that life is too short to complain about anything, or too short to not try out something. Too short that one day you would regret for not doing something which you want to do but fear to do. I remember watching this one show which Hilary Duff was acting in, I remember this one quotation that you would be able to find it one the wall saying: "Never let the fear strikes you out from playing the game," or something like that. In fact, if you were to think back about the meaning, it is true that life itself is a game. Like what Frodo remind Sam: “Remember what Bilbo use to say: It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to"". In deed that the road is just like your life, not knowing of what that is lies ahead of you. If you were to take the left, or even the right turning, you might never know what were to come next, whether it is good for you, or bad.
Life is just as unpredictable as those that die as soon as their were born. If we can still survive till this current age, it proof that we are strong. Strong enough to make any journey without having to fear of what might come. And it is never to late.
For my birthday, I think I go back to the traditional saying: "Be with my family, friends, and my boy friend". That is all that I can ever ask for.
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